The last week has been amazing! We were able to go to see Hamilton last Saturday, Eva was able to go to school each day and she even got to go on her class field trip. It felt wonderful getting to be normal for an entire school week, and then as always reality comes crashing back.
Eva was up most of the night last night with back pain. Rather than calmly think through what the causes could be, I ended up rocking in the bathroom floor weeping uncontrollably because obviously pain means more cancer. I have spent the morning at Saturday school and in snippets of prayer, praying that she is okay and this is just a quick bump in the road. 
I also spent some time thinking about a student I had a few years back, who pretended to be Elsa at parties and would sing out “Into the Unknown” through the CUHS hallways. I can’t help but smile, knowing that kiddo is on her way to being a medical professional and then one of those sneaky tears slips out because this is the hardest part. The unknown….
We are raised to believe that Christians should be safe and feel no fear when facing the unknown, but I am here to tell you as a Christian woman, the unknown is the hardest part. The unknown drives endless google research dives into Ewing Sarcoma and frantic searches to find anyone who might be a long term survivor. The unknown, drives you to analyze every photo and story told about Ewings Sarcoma, praying that you can catch a glimpse of a future that is beautiful and pain free. The unknown causes entire families to loose sleep at night because of back pain and knowing that there will be no sleep had until after the results of Monday’s scans. The unknown is terrifying and I struggle between praising Jesus that I don’t know the ending of our story and begging that I do. In the end, the only thing left is to humbly request prayer, again. Pray without ceasing, keeps crowding my mind as I mumble prayers throughout every activity and moment. God, please… Jesus help… Hear my voice.
Eva has scans and we know that Ewings Sarcoma doesn’t like to be attacked by chemo during a relapse. We know it is a cancer that grows smarter and fights back, but I know my God is the ultimate miracle maker. He can and He will. He knows how much I need her.
Along with general prayers, we ask that you pray this back pain goes away. We ask that you pray so hard for Eva Monday afternoon as she goes into those scanners. The last two times have been bad news, help us pray for the good. And lastly, we ask that in support of Eva, you wear an Eva strong shirt, yellow, or Carolina Blue. Let the world stand up and show that Devil Cancer that Eva is OUR Girl! SHE IS OURS!!!! Many prayers. Much love. #Evastrong
Enjoy this picture of Eva with Governor Kelly at her field trip!