Jade is back on the chemo shot and has to be in clinic every 48 hours for the next 2 weeks. She started it Friday with  double shots😩. She is currently on steriods and a home chemo. The steroids make her more emotional, but overall she is handling them well. She got word this week that her make a wish trip is scheduled and she has the dates of her Disney cruise! She is so excited! 

I think so much about our current situation.. the fact that my child was diagnosed with cancer at 9 years old. For about 6 months her diagnosis haunted my dreams. Every single night. It’s all I thought about and worried about. But the reality of my current situation is this: I have three beautiful children. I get to spend my days watching them grow and learn. Jade has no evidence of disease and is in remission. Sawyer is rocking it in school and on the field. Demi is full of energy and love. I feel joy, deep joy in my heart. Again. I’m not going to lie. It was gone. I’ve never lost faith, I’ve never stopped trusting God, but joy felt unattainable. How can someone feel joy when their child is sick? Well,  it’s possible. I feel it. Are there hard days? yes, so many. Is our normal different than it was a year ago? yes, but the amount of perspective I’ve gained on life and what truly matters is irreplaceable. So much has changed. Through it all our relationship with family has become stronger than ever (grandparents, aunts/uncles, cousins). Our friends make every effort to include us and make things fun for our kids even though it may look a little different. This weekend wasn’t anything extraordinary, but it was the first time in a year that we went out to eat in a restaurant as a family with my parents. It was also the first time in a year I had all of Jade’s grandparents over and cooked a meal for them. The kids rode bikes and atvs and played with their cousins and friends and family came to watch Sawyer’s soccer game. It was all so normal, but so special. I don’t ever want to look back and see how I let fear steal my joy. I let it do that for too long already through this journey. Those of you following along and continuing to pray for Jade mean more to me than you will ever know. You are my family. I wish there was a way for me to truly express what your support and love has meant to us. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.