‘Twas the day before surgery…

Today has been a surreal day, knowing that so much changes tomorrow. This surgery is the top of the mountain we’ve been working so hard to climb for 3.5 months. Weird that it’ll be over in about 24 hours, and the next seasons of post-op recovery, then her helmet, will begin. I didn’t put on her lip tape or nasal stent yesterday or today because I wanted a couple days to see her, my beautiful girl, just the way she was born 🩷 

I did get a call this morning confirming we have a room at the Ronald McDonald house for tonight (thank you for the prayers!) and I’m currently getting me and the kids packed up to head that way later this afternoon. Packing for everything we’ll need during our 3 night stay has my body remembering our week-long hospital stay back in September and is currently working through a significant flight-or-fight response. With the weight of what’s happening finally hitting me, the sinking feeling of being completely and utterly unprepared for what’s to come, and check-in at the hospital being 5:30am, I’m not expecting to get much sleep tonight. 

Joy will be taken back for surgery at 7:30am. Please be praying for her, the surgeons, the rest of her care team, and us at that time. I’ll update tomorrow as I’m able 🩷