Second treatment I didn't get my beautiful view. They didn't have Benadryl as part of my pre-meds. I need to let them know when I got home I had tingles in my right arm and thigh, it went away as soon as I took Benadryl.  The nausea and stomach issues were super gnarly for 6 days after treatment.  I switched to an organic non toxic coffee which is lower in acid. It has made a difference. I also purchased teas that support my gut and kidneys. The herbs that are in both tea blends will also support my liver.  There is a coconut kefir water that I drink that comes in glass bottles and also helps my stomach. 

 I went to Casa yesterday (Saturday 11-22) got my laser. I got to see Lori and Cori. I always feel so supported and loved when I am there. I can't wait until Lori's retreat is finished I want to spend a few days there and hopefully I will be able to do the sweat lodge.  I got home and passed out. I was supposed to have company come over but wasn't up to it. I text my dad and told him I have a taste for chicken and dumplings (healthier version). He asked if that is a hint? Just a very subtle one lol. He said he would be going shopping later :). I knew he would. In the 39 years I have known him, he has always been that way. I guess you can say I'm spoiled. 

I got a text from my sub the other day asking for tips about a student. I was afraid I might lose my touch with teaching since I haven't been there. I don't think that will be an issue for me. It truly is in my heart. I immediately told her about this student. Have I said how much I miss it? LOL.  I miss my co-workers too.  CRRE is truly a family and I love that place immensely.  I hope they won't forget me. Mike was all happy about football last week. Mike is a Bears fan, my boss is a Vikings fan. Mike has the audacity to say we should visit my school and he would wear his Bears jersey......OMG! Uh no way, keep me out of football stuff. I know how the Midwest is about their sports. 

Which brings me to the different emotions I go through. I know it's my healing time and this is where I  need to be for now. When I get back to teaching I will be better than ever. Having cancer makes a person soul search and really go within.  I do get angry but I have to feel it and let it go. The thought has crossed my mind what if my time is limited on earth? I will cross that bridge if it comes. I want to live, be healed, and continue to be here 34 years. I guess I'm specific lol.  

When I was a teen my best friend and I would go riding (motorcycle) with her parents and their friends all over Illinois/Wisconsin.  I have craved that. I would put my hair in a ponytail and enjoy the wind blowing. I would get so relaxed I could easily fall asleep on the driver's shoulder. Even then you could put in a cassette tape and listen to awesome music. There is something so freeing and beautiful about it. I could truly just enjoy myself and not think. I need to find someone with a motorcycle!!

Time to get ready for the day. Have a great day loves!!