It's been 6 days since treatment. I'm feeling better and still dealing with the same side effects.  My hair is thinning more and more. I need to get it trimmed so that way it doesn't look so stringy. I did have an IV Vit C infusion on Thursday. I love having a port again!  

 I have to resign from my position this week. I am heartbroken, however, I know that I have to take care of me.  I also know I am not physically emotionally able to work full time. If I can't be 100% I have no business being a teacher. I will add that to my list of goals I have. I am making small ones so I have things to look forward to and to feel like I am accomplishing things.  

Instead of getting upset about the things I can't do or are limited doing I am refocusing on the fact that I am alive, I am able to enjoy my family, I can still walk, I can clean, I can cook, I can enjoy the sunshine on my face,  I laugh a lot, I talk to my kids about stories I remember about different family members, etc.  This journey has moments where it is scary, lonely, frustrating, and a lot of unknowns. I hope my knowledge will someday help someone else going through this.  Who would've thought I would love learning about epigenetics?  

I was really nauseated and fatigued yesterday so I watched the movies P.S. I Love You and The Notebook.  It reminded me through pain we can learn and grow and find out things about ourselves we might not have figured out otherwise. The Notebook has always reminded me of my grandma, she had Alzheimers. My grandpa passed away 20 years before she did so that story isn't fully fitting but I know he loved her so very much like Noah loved Ally (they had 3 children, my grandparents had 9 LOL). 

I got my Viome tests results. I have a probiotic that is designed for my gut needs. The probiotic I had doesn't have not one type of probiotic my body needs. I'm thankful it costs the same amount. I love that I know what foods to eat that are best for my body and what ones to stay away from. 

My sister asked me yesterday if Mike and I were doing anything for Valentine's day. I told her to me it's a hallmark made up day that adds to more materialism. I would rather make our anniversary a big deal and date nights. Well when I can do date nights again.  June 2 we will be married 25 years!!!! I want to do something special, what? I don't know. If you have ideas you are more than welcome to text, call, or email me :)
I would need my kids help because planning and putting things together is too overwhelming for me. 

My left hand is making all kinds of typing errors so I better rest my hand. It did well since half of it is numb. I hope you all have a great weekend. Love to you!!