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“But even if…”

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The Hawk Family

This may be the hardest post yet.

Which sounds strange to say, considering I received the phone call no parent ever wants to receive—hearing that my son was diagnosed with brain cancer. And yet somehow, this feels like the heaviest moment so far. Spiritually and emotionally, I am feeling it in a way I don’t fully know how to put into words.

As we go into an MRI on Monday, I would be lying if I said I wasn’t extremely anxious.

My heart keeps going back to the words of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego in Daniel 3:18:
“But even if He does not…”

Even if He does not deliver us the way we are asking… we will not bow.

That phrase keeps echoing in my spirit: “But even if…”

But even if the tumor is not smaller… will I still trust Him?

But even if the scan does not show what I am begging God to show… will I still praise Him?

I want to be honest—I am struggling with what feels like very small faith right now. It is hard to admit that out loud. It is hard to sit in the tension of believing God can do anything, while also feeling overwhelmed by fear for my child.

Talking about faith is one thing. Living it when it is your child’s brain, his future, his physical and mental capacity on the line… that is something entirely different.

And if I’m being even more honest, this “but even if” phrase has been sitting heavy in my mind. I keep wondering why it keeps coming up. Why does the Lord keep bringing it back to me when all I want to focus on is prayers of healing? That alone has made me more anxious at times—like somehow it means I’m being prepared for something I don’t want to face. I don’t fully understand it. I just know it’s there, and I’m trying to be honest about that tension instead of ignoring it.

I am praying for MRI images that show healing. I am asking boldly for unexplainable diminishing of the tumor that’s affecting my child.

I want this scan to show something only explainable by an omnipotent God whom we serve. I want doctors and radiologists to look at it and have no words so Steven and Liam and I can say, “That is our God.”

That is what I am crying out for.

And yet I keep coming back to the same question the Word puts in front of me:

Even if He does not do what I am asking… will I still trust Him?

Even if it does not go the way I am praying… will I still say praise Him?

If you are reading this, would you please lift us up in prayer.

Please pray for Liam as he goes into this MRI on Monday. Pray for healing over his body, for every scan to show exactly what God is doing. Pray for peace in his mind and body, and strength for him in every way he needs it right now.

Please also pray for me—that in this tension, in this waiting, I would not be overcome by fear. Pray that God would hold my heart steady when it feels weak, and that even in my honesty, my faith would not let go of Him.

Please pray for my husband, Steven—that he would continue to stand firm and strong for our family. Pray that God would strengthen him in every place he is carrying weight, that he would not grow weary, and that he would feel upheld and sustained in a way that can only come from the Lord.

Please pray for our other children as well—that they would be covered in peace, protected in their hearts and minds, and not carry fear or confusion in this season. Pray that they would feel safe, loved, and steady even in what they may not fully understand.

We are praying for healing and we are asking for strength for whatever comes next.

“But even if” . . .

Alison Hawk
20 days ago

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Dina Dell 20 days ago

Thank you for sharing so we can pray even more specifically for you, Mama.

Rpeck1107 20 days ago

Praying for everyone.

Carol Yates 20 days ago

Oh Alison ♥️. Your post has brought me to tears. I’m so sorry that Liam and your sweet family is going thru this but what a testimony Liam will be. Praying for you all and Gods blessings on your family. I love you ❤️

Creationsbymaw 20 days ago

Thanking you for the updates - praying for you all

Leah Hughes 20 days ago

Beautifully written my friend. Prayers continue. Believing for his complete healing, and for your faith to continue to grow as it’s been tested. James 1:3 🤍

Heather Mizell 20 days ago

Prayers for all of you. Strength, grace, healing and boldness to believe and see where God is moving. Proverbs 3:6,6

Regina Hice 20 days ago

Prayers for our Liam & ALL of our Hawk Family! Thank you for sharing your heart & I love you 7️⃣ blessings! ♥️💙💙💙💙♥️💙

Melissa Spencer 19 days ago

We love yall. Praying continually for Liam’s healing. Praying for your family to be covered by The Holy Spirit. Praying for you! Big hug!🥹

Brandy Cochran 19 days ago

I heard this song on the way to work this morning. “There’s a God” by Mary Clair Chorus: “There’s a God who knows your name There’s a friend who feels your pain There is someone who will sit with you when the whole world walks away There’s a God who’s reaching out He can heal your heart right now See His open arms full of love that will not stop There is HOPE cause there’s a GOD! “ Love you all! ❤️🙏

Mary Silvers 19 days ago

. . . to finish . . . Remember Matthew 11: 28 - 30 three things He tells us to do to receive His promise: “come”, “learn” and “take” . I love and admire you and your family so very much, and am praying for each of you!

Andrea Knight 19 days ago

God is Always there! As we talked today realizing how he is guiding you & putting things in place for you! We love you all & continue to pray for you and your family daily. I am so excited to get started on the bracelets. “BE STILL, AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD”

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