Today was a big step and a scary test. We tested a month ago and again today his bone marrow. From my understanding the bone marrow test that happened first confirmed the worst news I've ever gotten in my life and hopefully the news we get back from the bone marrow test that happened today is good news that the chemo worked and we are on a track of better health ahead. 

The thing with leukemia I guess is it takes some time someone the other day said 3 years .. before they consider not seeing any bad cells as remission... But technically the hope is that he is in remission now!!! And we are just making sure that shit doesn't come back. 

It's been really hard seeing him suffer during this month with chemo, pokes, taking so many different meds for pain and to prevent things and steroids ....  We stopped the steroids last night. They said the first month is the hardest with how long the steroids are. (So far I have nothing to compare it to but it has been difficult) The hunger!!!! The wild hunger that comes from these steroids and the chubby cheeks and a little bit more of a belly than before.... Late night munchies I let him eat whatever he wanted. I'm grateful he is eating because before this he had kinda lost his appetite. They warned me he would get angry but he never did .... Just uncomfortable and very hungry and maybe less patient than before... But I'm looking forward to having my sweet giggles to back. 

I want to just warn anyone reading this... Sorry... I know I'm not the best at writing and probably have run on sentences and lots of errors.... But right now I don't care. I don't have much time but wanna share with who cares to know. I'm sorry iv never been good at this kinda thing but I'm trying cuz I think it's important to remember and I'm hoping some day I'll look back and be like wow that was a bad dream and I'm glad we got through that .... God willing we will! He is the strongest, sweetest, bravest little man and I'm so proud of him for doing all he can and leaning on me when he needs support.


I love you all. Thanks for the prayers and good vibes. Makes me cry happy tears knowing people are rooting for him more than I could truly express. 

I'll let you guys know when we find out what's ahead... Kinda in the dark again. Sucks not knowing.