Where is God

There's a line in one of Sadie's favorite shows that the main character had felt like God had left him. That He didn’t care, that He gave him too heavy of a life to bear and he finally feels Him and says "...and I think back to that moment where I asked you “where is God” and I want to scream He's right here..." and then he goes on to list all the small moments.

I can't help but think of that line every day. I see Him every day. He's the daily text messages checking in on us.

He's the tech that we haven’t seen in a week remembering Sadie’s name like they’re best friends.

He’s the music volunteer that brings extra instruments because she mentioned that she loves the piano and drums.

He’s the nurse that moves so slowly with her even though he’s got a list of things to do but doesn’t want her to feel overwhelmed by even the smallest task.

He’s the friends that say “I thought of you all today and just wanted to tell you” or “I found the perfect thing to make her smile I’m sending it your way”. 

He’s the other transplant family down the hall from us going through the same experience and their love and support like we’ve know each other all our lives.

He’s the online support groups with hundreds of words of encouragement.

He’s the perfect scripture finding its way to our eyes and ears.

He’s the prayer train going all the way around the world and back just for her.

He’s the DoorDash driver that waits an extra ten minutes because I got caught up in a task and then stopped on every elevator floor- and still smiles when they hand me my order.

He’s the janitor that greets her every single morning with a huge smile and knows her name and prays for her. 

He’s the nutritional aid that sneaks her extra vanilla almond milks so she’s never out when she wants it. 

He's the facebook post where a tired Mom can just 'let it out' and get so much love to help renew her.

He’s here. He lives so boldly here. Sadie asks me “Momma why would God give this to me?” And I can honestly tell her “so we can be closer to Him”