A day to celebrate

Today was Harper's Birthday- I woke up this morning and sat beside Sadie's hospital bed, still in sweat pants and a tshirt and started to gently wake her for medication. 

There was a knock at her door and when I looked up and expected to see her nurse with meds instead stood three of her cardiologist. Her transplant doctor asked me "have you heard the news?" and I didn't dare hope for what he said next "We've accepted a heart on her behalf". 

Today- they accepted a heart for Sadie today. 

They checked her out and Sadie and I just nodded and smiled at them until it was just the two of us. I looked at her and said "They found your heart" and I cried happy tears and she cried happy tears and we called Will and Harper and they cried happy tears. 

Instantly my heart soared for the possibility that tomorrow Sadie will go through surgery and have her angel heart- but I wont lie, the mother in me grieves with the mother on the other side of this. I'm very aware that in order for this miracle to come to us that someone else had to make the choice to have their child be an organ donor- my heart stays with that family.

Sadie is a bit nervous "because it's surgery" but is "also very excited and ready to have my new heart". 

I can't help but smile at God- his timing, not mine- Happy Birthday Harper- they found your sister's angel heart today. 

Sadie goes into surgery tomorrow- sometime- there are no details at the moment. I'll keep you updated.