Each day I wake up I feel like myself. This morning when I opened my eyes the first thing I thought was "thank you God for another beautiful day", then I took inventory of my body and smiled, there I am.

I messaged with my new friend Vera yesterday. She was wondering if I was joining their monthly fasting group. I told her I had to sit this month out: finances and I am navigating how I feel day to day. I don't want to be committed to twice daily video calls.  She is amazing though like I am grateful I found her. She is a 4 time cancer survivor. She told me make sure I am juice fasting. She is on the same treatment I am and has no side effects. She does juice fasts, water fasts, or dry fasts. I went to Sprouts Saturday and got the produce I need for my juices. Brandon only juiced 2 cucumbers and the other 2 I had to throw away a day later. That is insane especially with how much they cost!! With me not being able to drive myself to the store it is frustrating. Oh wait, I need to talk to my dad, I'm sure he would help me. This not being able to drive, go for walks alone, or even shower without someone downstairs is for the birds!

Anyway, Vera inspires me so much. I watched her video about how she is a 4 time cancer survivor made emotional when she was given 6 months to live and here it is 2 years later. We have a lot of the feistiness,  will to live, and humor. If you have read my bio please please don't look up what the prognosis is, please don't have any fear or doubt. I don't want any of that felt, thought, or said.  I don't even like to say I am battling or fighting for my life because that sounds so harsh, I rather think of it as I am in the process of learning, growing, and healing.  You might think it is denial but I promise you I am not.  I have 3 good sized books full of people that have healed from cancer when the doctors said there was nothing more to be done. There are 10 different things each person did that contributed to their healing and that is what I follow. I work with a counselor about pasts trauma, habits, etc. I recognize patterns and look within often. I am a work in progress and will continue to write new chapters in my life. One day I will look back and see the growth I have made and I will be a better version of myself. I will be able to give back to life.

I have to get my iv started so I will end my tons of thoughts running through my mind :) Love to you all!!

Song of the day: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CtJPdiYk15g&list=RDCtJPdiYk15g&start_radio=1

Vera's video:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gRJuxu_EYeU