This last week was a heavy. 💛

We had appointments with ophthalmology for Benny’s eyes and ortho for his hips… and I’m still just sitting in all of it today.

At his eye appointment, he got new glasses 🤓 and we’re starting patching his right eye for 2 hours a day to hopefully strengthen his left.

At ortho… we were given two options:

• Adductor release surgery

• Hip reconstruction surgery

Both feel big, Both feel scary, Both are considered “temporary fixes” with possible long-term effects and a guarantee to need again as he grows but doing nothing could also lead to pain and more damage.

And my biggest thing Benny is only two years old, And right now, he’s not in pain. And truthfully we have to think of this in the bigger picture of his life and forever vs the here and now, but I also could be wearing blinders to the severity! I’m often a bandwagoner and I’m not on this wagon yet. 

I left feeling overwhelmed and not fully at peace, so we will absolutely be getting second opinions before making any decisions.

Some days just feel heavier than others…

and today is one of those days. If I’m being completely honest… there are moments I wish the people responsible for this had to walk through even one day of our reality, the appointments, the decisions, the unknowns, the weight of it all.

Because it’s heavy in ways you can’t understand unless you’re living it, But no matter what… we will keep showing up and fighting for Benny every single day. 🤍🐝