worried

As i lay in bed unable to sleep — worried about my upcoming eviction if i can’t find the resources to get the rent paid— and i look through DV awareness for the month .. i think about the ugly reality of why we stay so long.

i’m glad i got out 3 years ago…but being stuck in a town with no family or village it’s hard.  i left a fully paid for house and home based business where i didn’t need a babysitter or rent i just needed to pay utilities.  Now i have to miss work and income whenever the kids are sick or suspended.  God forbid i end up sick which happened in august and is what put me back so far.

when you leave a relationship like i had you now have everything on your shoulders with no help and it’s scary as can be.

so next time you say why didn’t she leave sooner…. 

if anyone knows how to get my ex forced to sell my house and give me my cut so i can buy us a house and have one less thing to worry about.