Don't know what to do.....

Truthfully things are hard.... I really actually want to give up I know not to.... I feel like things are just unwinnable.... Honestly like everything is against me truthfully..... There's only so much I'm able to do and truthfully it frustrates me that I can't do what I need to fully people see the outside they don't see the internal struggle too.... If I ask anything please just send prayers truthfully that's all I can ask.... I know God has a plan I don't see it truthfully at the moment.... And today is my birthday..... Just another day to be honest....